» Dumb things you've done

Stuck for life
Got myself addicted to drugs and alcohol, got myself a criminal record and declared myself bankrupt.

Now I'm 8 months clean, skint and have to 'enjoy' my first Christmas with not so much as a spoonful of brandy butter.

Merry fucking christmas.

This was typed with an ounce of self pity and a kilo of humbug! he he
(Fri 21st Dec 2007, 21:17, More)

» Stupid Tourists

er...
Its not that funny but i'll say it anyway.....On a visit to America some years back...my parents proceeded to ask a guy in the shop which fags he recommended.....

...it took a while to explain to them what fags are in America...hence his total look of bewilderment...
(Fri 8th Jul 2005, 7:48, More)

» Irrational Hatred

Chammers
Total twats who insist on eating really loudly. And with their mouths open at the same time. DO THEY NOT REALISE!!!!

I feel violent everytime I am exposed to that noise.
(Sat 2nd Apr 2011, 20:28, More)

» Now, there was no need for that...

dodgy pulling tactics
My mates at a club....bloke walks up, trying to pull em, then out he says 'now lets not turn this rape into a murder'

Er..just no need.
(Thu 16th Jun 2005, 13:09, More)

» Addicted

ooh....just a few
Heroin
Benzos
Ketamine
Amphetamine
Cocaine
Cannabis
Alcohol
MDMA
Acid
Magic Mushrooms
Sex
Spending money

13 years of using daily.

How low have I sunk?

Financially bankrupt.
Crim record for dealing, crim damage and violence. Crown and Magistrates Court,
Getting parental home raided,
Sucked cock for drugs,
Slept with skanky men for a bed for the night and drugs,
Lost numerous jobs,
Lost numerous friends,
Severly pissed off family,
Stomach ulcer,
Burst vessels in my nose,
Scars from self harm and smashing various objects over other peoples heads,
Chunks of teeth missing,
Heart strain,
Eating disorder,
10 years (and counting) prescription of anti-depressents...
...am sure there is more...may need a later post...memories abit fucked these days...

I am an addict. I will always be an addict. Being an addict isn't just a reliance on substances its a spiritual deficiency that relies on outside things to make you feel good when there really is a massive void inside that needs to be worked on. Putting substances down doesn't make it go away. It manifests itself other stuff and behaviours can define it.

I know all this because.......4 years of therapy, 6 months and one week of intensive rehab. Continuing ongoing daily recovery work...its something that is always there.

No booze for me this christmas.

Im coming up 18 months abstinent.
Im coming up to 30 years old.
(Wed 24th Dec 2008, 20:31, More)