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Yes, I am getting help, actually. Finally getting treated for depression. The prozac isn't making much of a difference, but there's still group therapy and counselling to come.
And no, I'm not mad at the world, but I *am* pissed off specifically at the people who've been posting "I never tried to fit in and my life's just fine (implied: more fool you for trying)". And yes, I *do* lack social skills, and I *am* working on that, too. It's not Asperger's-level bad, but I *am* awkward, and I don't know a lot of the mechanics of how to make friends and connect with people. As far as blaming the actions of children when I was a child? Well, it's not a question of blame - okay, I do have recurring revenge fantasies - but recognition that at a time when people are learning important skills about how to interact comfortably, I didn't. And I'm working on making up for that now.

Not so much angry, as sad. And, yes, self-pitying.
(MrCanoehead Marzipaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan!, Tue 20 Jan 2009, 15:34, 1 reply)

I understand what you're saying
I too was pretty much an individual and refused to do anything in an attempt to "fit in". Looking back, if I had been a bit less intractable and more flexible, I would have had a better time and would have probably gained some important social skills which I am not strong in to this day.

Not that I'm complaining, just that "Be yourself and don't care about what anyone else thinks" is one of those crap platitudes that people spout that actually turn out to be pretty crappy advice in the real world. Kind-of like "ignore bullies and they'll go away". I always found that seeing them off with a bloody nose worked best for that.
(Richy_T hundreds if not thousands of dollars, Tue 20 Jan 2009, 16:23, closed)

true enough...
when I was a kid, the school bully beat me up a few times because he was a) big for his age and, b) three years above me. I could be self-pitying about it, or I could say "well, that was twenty years ago, so forget it" and still feel bad, or I could do what I actually did which was take the inevitable kicking, but hit him in the teeth with a hard-backed hymn book so he realised he'd get hurt if he tried it again. He left me alone and I got some life experience out of it.

I see so many tales on here of "oh, I was bullied and it ruined my life" - bollocks - you might have been bullied, but you did fuck all to fight back and you *let* it ruin your life.

The meek may well inherit the earth, but it'll only be after every other fucker has finished with it - these Emo-types need to grow some balls, stand up for themselves when people have a go and realise that no-one is perfect and that they might have been a bit of an obnoxious cock with their "I won't follow the crowd, you bunch of mindless sheep" attitude and soon they'll find that they're heading towards being a normal human being.
(Chad, Tue 20 Jan 2009, 16:37, closed)

sometimes the crowd is going in the right direction
that's my piece of wisdom for today
( Vipros. clever got me this far, then tricky got me in, Tue 20 Jan 2009, 16:42, closed)