wow, I could be reading something I've written
so feel for you.

The 'good enough' thing is a real shitter isn't it? Even if you 'achieve' what you set out to, you still see the ways you could have done better, and 'next time round'. People say you're 'just being hard on yourself' or MTFU or whatever, but if you offered me a way to reprogramme my perspective, that actually worked and stayed working, I wouldn't hesitate.

And if this is normal, wow, its mad to think isn't it, we're all going round, feeling like we're the freaks, the exception to the rule, and everyone we look at has it sorted. But they don't, they're just acting better?
And yes, I know, fake it till you make it.
Wearing masks does my head in. It seems not genuine, but is a necessary unless, like you say become a "whiner or attention seeker"

Good luck with the addictions whatever they are. You CAN get on the other side of this (even though this is all just words on a screen), I wish you all the best.
(maggotriddendirtbox fast, feral and sharp as a tack since, Sat 1 May 2010, 0:04, Reply)