Bullying
I suffered in silence for 3 years, it was actually 4 years but after the 1st year and not getting any help or support I pretty much gave up and just accepted that this was the way my life was going to be.

It didn't just affect me - it affected my parents. They couldn't help and this caused a few arguments between which only made me more determined to stay silent.

When I pushed through a 3rd storey window I still tried to keep things quiet.

When I had broken hand held down and punched I still kept quiet.

When they would climb 12ft fences around the tennis courts I didn't bother to run - they'd only get me later.

They knew where I lived so going out was always a bit fraught. Staying in was the same. Sometimes they'd wait outside my house.

Taking the dog out for a walk was a bit of worry - things were always worse outside school, although attacks were much rarer.

I had my ears pulled so hard that they ripped. They're now a bit knobbly.

My parents did their best, and I love them for it, but they could never help. To ask them for help would have been weak.

That's just a few of the things I went through. It might not sound much but even today they still affect me to an extent. When I see those people in the street (which is thankfully rare!) I become that person I was and shrink inside. Even though all this happened 15 years ago I still wonder how I could have been so weak as to let it happen.

I'm a father myself now, as some as you know, and made a promise to my son that I'll never let him suffer like I did. I hope to God that he never does. I love him, he's special and I'll always do my best to protect him.

Writing this post has been a tough. It's not something I like to talk about and it's not something that many of my friends know about, but in a strange way its something of a relief.

As is the norm in many tales like this, most of the people who bullied me are habitual criminals and/or junkies. In hindsight I guess (and in some cases know) they had little or no family life. I suppose they were missing something and thats what made them the way they were. I'm man enough to forgive but I'll never forget.
( SpikeyPickle wishes he was mabazaritchie, Wed 13 May 2009, 14:30, 4 replies)

you should start . . . .

'offing them' one by one.... on a more serious note though, we all have regrets about the way we did things in the past, both bullies and victims and everyone else...
(The Cats Twat, Wed 13 May 2009, 14:37, closed)

Jesus Spike...
I never expected this.

As you say, most of the bullies now are criminals and/or junkies, while you have a fantastic baby son, a lovely missus (*fwaps*) and friends who would bend over backwards to help you. I should know, I'm one of them.

You're ace mate, don't let those fuckers play on your mind anymore.
( Agnostic Antichrist Baltimora, Wed 13 May 2009, 15:06, closed)

*hugs*
I'm not such a toughnut after all :0(
( SpikeyPickle wishes he was mabazaritchie, Wed 13 May 2009, 15:28, closed)

Also...
You are quite ugly :D
( Agnostic Antichrist Baltimora, Wed 13 May 2009, 15:32, closed)